The search inward

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You want to know what you should do in life, you have to make a decision.

In us we have intuition. We feel deep inside what is the best choice.

The more we follow our intuition, the more we will be reinforced and know that to follow our intuition is right.

Sometimes we know what to do and then begin to think what consequences our actions could have.

This usually leads us to wrong conclusions because we just don’t know and cannot know what consequences our actions will have.

Does it mean we should not think about how to act? No, I don’t believe that this is what it means. We only should not deviate from the direction shown by our intuition.

Sometimes we come in difficulties. What does this mean? Does it mean we are on the right track or on the wrong track? It can mean both of these. When we feel connected to our deepest core we know that we have to overcome obstacles. When we feel estranged from our deepest self we may interpret difficulties as beacons telling us to deviate from the right course.

Sometimes we feel excited. Is this a sign of being on the right road? It sometimes is and sometimes is not. When we deepen our mind and pray and meditate and we feel confirmed that our excitement was right, we can trust our bright feelings. When we deepen us and feel doubts coming up in that process, our excitement may have been too external and not a sign of being on the right track.

When we are on the right track we feel united in ourselves, internally and externally there are no contradictions.

Contradictions in our own behaviour and thinking and feelings always are a sign that something is not right in what we pursue.

The road to truth is the road deeper into our self. This road leads us to find God in us. Such a road of finding the origin in us is sometimes long and difficult. On that road of finding our deepest self we will be hindered by many obstacles. These barriers are the shells of our tendency to live a make-up, cosmetic life. Those shells need to be pulled down, one after another, through our own effort to discover who we really are.

When deep darkness falls over us, something is wrong. Something may be wrong in our direction, or something may be wrong with people around us whom we trust. Internal darkness always means that something is wrong, but we still have to find out what is causing that darkness.

February 14, 2008